7/11/2025
Oh. So ATARs are released in 4 days… I don’t even know how I feel.
I genuinely don’t want to see my ATAR. Most of my exams went horribly, so I already feel like my ATAR is going to look bad.
I’m more scared of what my parents will say… they have such unrealistic expectations.
I keep telling myself the only thing that matters is that I tried, right?
I had my grad the other day and it was so sad. Being fully done with school, seeing everyone for the last time saying goodbye to my teachers and classmates it hit me harder than I expected.
The holidays have been good, just kind of boring. It’s like before, I had this purpose in life, which was studying, and now that it’s over, I don’t know what to look forward to or do.
I’m glad I’m done with school. When I think about not having to wake up early, not sitting in class for 7 hours, not doing multiple SACs every week, and not being stressed… it actually feels amazing.
But at the same time, I do miss school a bit. It’s weird I miss it but I don’t. Life feels great without the stress of studying, but something about it still feels… empty
