I started this journal quite late into the year (barely 6 days till my first exam), but hopefully ill be able to journal continuously throughout year 12 next year.

Background information

  • I'm a year 11 student studying 1/2 -bio, chem, math methods, English, and 3/4 busman, psych.
  • I'm aiming for an ATAR that is 98+ (not sure how that's going to go next year)
  • I love to read

25/10/22
Honestly, I feel like I haven't been learning anything for the past week of revision, everything's gotten so boring and repetitive that I've lost all motivation to even study and have resorted to scrolling Reddit and discussion pages for so long. I've been sick for the past few days and that's making me feel worse about everything. I thought I was getting really good scores in my multiple choice on psych, but then today I did the 2021 vcaa exam and got quite worse, making me feel even more terrified. What's even worse is the fact that the psychology exam is on my birthday so u know what my birthday wish is going to be, and I can't even go home and relax because my business exam is two days after 🙁 (I'm just overreacting)

On a much more positive note, I'm quite excited for my exams to be over because I am going to binge-watch so many shows!! AND anyone of you Collen hover fans? I'm so looking forward to reading her new book 'it starts with us

This has been oddly therapeutic, i might be doing it more often in the future 😆
also good luck to those of you doing English exams tomorrow!!!

-Sasushi <3

7 days later

1/11/22

Going to my psychology exam felt so surreal, like I've done lots of exams before but this one just felt different. I don't know how to explain it, and I'm probably being really dramatic but it was just this really weird feeling like 'oh my gosh I'm actually here and what I do here is actually affecting my future ATAR, and everything i do from know on is probably affecting my chances of getting into medicine'

I needed like a whole day to process what happened on the psych exam. I'm happy it's over, but that was probably the hardest exam (out of all of vcaa's prev exams) that I've had to do. My opinion may be a bit biased, but to be fair even one of the teachers who suggested solutions for the MCQs was unsure what the correct solutions to the answers were. VCAA really screwed us this year.

I'm trying to block all of my memory from the psych exam, until the 12 of December when my study score comes out but it's really difficult. I can't help but wonder what the correct answers to questions were, what other people wrote, or if I did alright. I know that people tell you not to look at the suggested answers or talk to your friends about what happened on the exam, but it's really hard not to do

I have my Business exam tmr, and I think that I'm going to be alright. I haven't studied for business in the last few days leading up to the psych exam but I'm hoping that the studying I've done throughout the year and all of the exam prep I've done will pay off . I'm looking forward to when it's 5:15 and awaiting the relief of finishing my exams, I will never have to think about Porter's generic strategies or Maslow's motivational theories again- I think.

I can only imagine how it feels for the year 12's after they have completed all of their exams. ☮️

Good luck to all of the methods and busman students tomorrow!

p.s. I'm really glad I didn't choose to do busman next year because id probably have both methods and bus on the same day. yuck. 🤮

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