ZAZ Great to hear you're getting better. Journalling is definitely a good idea to vent and reflect on both highs and lows, just remember that you don't have to share anything you're not comfortable with. Have you reducing your workload by part timing or doing 3 units a semester? It gives you more time to focus on each of your subjects

      Billzene Hi Bill, I have underloaded in the majority of my semesters just to avoid intermission, but my mental health probably needed a break away from all the studies related stuff. So I have done badly regardless and eventually had to take intermission anyway. I'm at the peak of all times since my diagnoses, but still a bit nervous and don't know how long this is going to last. Right now I wish uni start sooner so that it will not gone 'wasted'. At the very least, I am hoping that I will not start uni at one of the lowest points. I think now I started to accept that I will be mediocre and that's fine with me.

          ZAZ Hey, I'm not actually a uni student so I probably don't have the best advice, but have you considered taking a gap year? It will probably prolong your studies, but it might be a good idea if you need a break to focus on recovery and to then start your tertiary studies with an optimal start

              15 days later

              An update

              I got a notice from University that I am at unsatisfactory academic progress risk level three, which I could be excluded from University.

              This will keep me busy before uni starts, otherwise it might never.

                ZAZ if it's your first level 3 risk notification you almost have 0% chance of being kicked out. I think they only exclude people who have been on level 3 notice on quite a while

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                    Billzene Yeah, I have stayed on level three for a while, but the process never gets better any time I had to face it.

                      a month later

                      I have been offered a place for on campus accommodation. Hopefully I can pass the APC hearing.

                      I'm seeing my psychologist every week now, didn't see any improvement yet.

                      It's now 8 years after the new year, having to live with depression, I can't even remember how things used to be, maybe I was depressed without diagnosis. I just remember that I wasn't happy like other kids when I first had memory.

                      Less Bad 2023

                      5 days later

                      I will have APC hearing soon, hope for the best!

                        ZAZ good luck! Surely they're more understanding than usual given the past few years

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                          14 days later

                          7 February

                          I have changed my units a bit, they are the followings for semester 1.

                          I will have my hearing tomorrow, but I have been preparing for the move to on campus accommodation on this coming Saturday, so if the hearing fails I will have to think about something else, failing to meet the purpose 312 dollars a week is way too expensive.

                          ATS2267 True happiness: The art, practice and science of human flourishing

                          FIT1045 Introduction to programming

                          MAT1830 Discrete mathematics for computer science

                          MTH2132 The nature and beauty of mathematics

                          Less Bad 2023

                          9 February

                          I have spent a day trying to process the fact that I am excluded from Monash.

                          I thought a lot about not being good enough when answering their questions.

                          The original plan of moving in turned out to be having to stay at my dad's house.

                          For whom I escaped from as soon as I turned 22 and getting Youth Allowance.

                          I have also been discussing with MRS about getting my deposit back but was unsuccessful.

                          Everything around me for the past 23 years seemed awful and will continue to be.

                          My only hope? Less Bad.

                          Less Bad 2023

                            ZAZ Sorry to hear about the outcome, I’d highly recommend working when you don’t know where you’re headed to academically since in the mean time you could stumble on something you really like and discover what you really want to do as a job. Can you arrange to share a room with a friend or a partner if you have a problematic relationship with your dad?

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                              21 days later

                              Friday 3 March

                              So, I haven't updated for quite a long time.

                              Just to say I am fine for now, I'm seeing psychologist every week.

                              Less Bad 2023

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