my year 12 journey!

hi guys!!
i know there a tonne of these journals on this site...so I'm gonna be super cliche and do the exact same thing!
i always imagined that i would be writing one of these journals since they looked fun, but now that I'm actually doing it, its feels a little scary. like year 12...dam :p internal scream

anyways

this year I'm taking five subjects; mainstream English, chemistry, methods, specialist and further
and in 2022 i took biology early
i feel like im weird for taking so many maths...and im right but its the one thing im decent at so we're gonna roll with it
uhhh so last year biology, i was obvs hoping for an amazing ss but i figured i wouldn't get it after the first two sacs, but i wasn't disappointed either since it was like testing out year 12 and ill never need bio in my life anyways.

goals for this year
okay im gonna be honest, i suck as a student. im not organised in the slightest, i procrastinate soooooo much and i get distracted very easily. i put off work to the last minute and then i give up trying to do it in the end since its probably too late anyways. SO this year, we're gonna be organised, do our work on time, try to stay up to if not ahead of class and ACTUALLY GODAM TRY. its honestly a surprise i did as decent as i did in year 11 considering my preparations for sacs and test.
also i don't wanna cut out my entire social life just for one year so im gonna stay social, hopefully stay fit, fix my diet and sleeping habits too coz that's all terrible
BASICALLY i wanna do the best i possibly can!
ofc i have all of my ss and atar/uni goals but im gonna reveal all that at the end of the year dramatic
ill update this journal at the end of each week along with my progress too.
weekly goal:
-please for the love of god start your english draft
-finish another chemistry exercise
-finish off chap 1 for spesh
-do a little bit of extra study for methods and further

okay ill check back in a week
GOOD LUCK TO ALL YR 12s <3
-metoo

okay so its been a week
ive literally spent the whole week just freaking out about the rest of the year...so not the best start
idk why but I'm finding it hard to get any real motivation to study lucky I've done majority of my holiday hw so it could be a lot worse. the english book I'm reading rn is actually killing me its so terrible, i read an entire other book faster than i could read one chapter of my school book. i think its good that i didn't do much work it helped me calm down a little instead of freaking out.
from last weeks goals...
-started english yayyyy :3
-did 2 pages of a chem exercise...crap
-1 more exercise of spesh to go
-read over some notes for further and methods
next week
-make a solid plan for eng
-finish 1.2 for chem
-try to understand algorithms for spesh
-review pervious chapters for further and methods (skim reading)
hhguhiyu school starts in 12 days
PANIC
okay byyeeee
-me too

its been a minute but im back!
okay week one of school is now over
WOW
its been so weird
i had a test on both days one and two for methods and general math
I'm pretty happy with how they went. For methods i made a silly mistake that I'm really disappointed with but overall I'm happy. For general maths my scores were really good, but i feel like for this subject i should be aiming higher and I'm going to keep working towards that. The rest of the week we had our yr12 camp. It wasn't perfect as i was hoping someone would rlly come, but tough luck i guess. crazy to think this is my last highschool camp which makes me a little scared and sad but on to the future!
okay for the upcoming week
i have a chem test and ill receive feedback for my creative piece in English and a bit of specialist hw due.
I'm starting to have second thoughts about choosing chem, i don't think ill need it and I've met my science pre-req score already from bio last year.
GOALS FOR THIS WEEK
-chem study
-spec home work
-edit english piece
FIRST SAC IN TWO WEEKS WOOOHOOO (((((
stupid vce
alright
hope every one had a good first week
-me too

It's been two weeks..TIME FOR AN UPDATE!!
everything has been so hectic recently- like wow. i feel like everything is moving at a pace that i cant understand and i have no idea whether I'm up to date with my work or falling behind. i feel very confident with some of my subjects and completely lost in others. like with specialists, I'm having trouble with the way my teachers teaching us vectors but i think that the majority of that is my fault as i haven't been keeping up to date with the work. so thats one area where i really have to improve on. I've had three assessments in the past two weeks.
-chem test: i came out of the test feeling like trash. i thought i had definite failed, and apparently there is a decrease of forty percent between 1/2 chem and 3/4 chem. But luckily i managed to pass and i was totally shocked with my score even though it was garbage lol. most of my mistakes were jus silly things that can easily be avoided as long as i remember to stay calm and coherently write my answers as well as carefully read the questions. overall i neither feel good nor bad about my result, aiming for higher on the next one!
-methods test: I'm very disappointed with my preparation for this test, i did not finish the exercises or even touch the revision questions which to be honest really is not acceptable. i would've been okay had i tried at least 2 or 3 questions from each exercise but i really put it off. I was lucky that i was fairly familiar with this topic and had a decent grasp on it that i managed to pull off a pretty decent grade. However i did not do well on outcome 1 (no cas) because of silly mistakes which again can be easily avoided had i paid a little more attention and rushed. really basic things like putting +/- in front of the square root. aiming even higher for the next test and aiming to do more study.
-English sac: there's not much i can currently say about this one as i haven't received any grades yet but I'm pretty okay with how i went. i managed to write my entire story within the given time frame, and i improvised an ending as i hadn't written one in my draft and i think it turned out pretty well. not expecting anything crazy as english is not my strong suit but were just gonna give it our best shot, right!
GOALS FOR THIS WEEK:
-chem test no.2 REVISE HARD
-methods 3A 3B
-specialist (lets jus get a start)
-gen test tmrw REVISION
alrightttttttttttt
one english sac down 4 more to go
i have another goal which i didn't add to my list as it isn't academic but i wanna start taking care of myself better. sometimes i begin to spiral without control about stuff that's not in my control, and in those moments i need to remind myself that everything is gonna be okay. i will be honest tho its been getting harder and harder to believe everything will be okay but we push forward nonetheless.
happy valentines to everyone <3
-me too

ahhhhhh yesss thats so understandable. I feel like i have been dumped with a lot of work and way too many expectations. people are always like you have to stay in the moment and enjoy year twelve since its your final chance to have fun at highschool but that honestly seems impossible-
its great to know i can relate with other people's experiences!
thanks for the kind words ^-^

OKAY IM BACK 4 MONTHS LATER!!
wassup yall?!?!
i did not forget about this discussion at all but i did get bombarded with soooo much since i last posted. i even ended up overseas for a couple of weeks, it has been ages since i last saw my family so it was great to see them again and was also like a little reset button which helped calm me down immensely.
here's a list of all the tests/sacs that have happened since i last posted and some quick little comments
english: language analysis sac
I'm neither happy nor sad with the way english is playing out currently, its just been pretty average so i cant really complain. I'm getting around the same scores as i did in year 11 which is oddly comforting, but i did expect to do a little bit better on language analysis because i knew i was very capable of doing so, but the articles we received really threw me off hard and i panicked and ended up missing out on a whole paragraph. it did make me a little sad as my teacher believed i would be able to get a pretty high score but I'm not too bummed out. ON TO THE NEXT SAC
chemistry: 4 tests and 2 sacs (unit 3 is finished)
for chemistry, in terms of tests I'm doing pretty average compared to my class mainly bc i thought my tests wouldn't rlly affect my study score so i don't study for them, but in terms of the sacs i am killing it. however, my teacher did say that she has been making the sacs either and may have to end up using the tests to rank us. which is honestly some bs since i would've studied harder for tests if i had known they would be affecting me in my ranking. the difference between my tests and sac is 30% so i clearly know what I'm doing and just don't try in tests which is pissing me off a little but we also have a pretty strong cohort so ig we'll see how this plays out.
general: 3 tests and 1 sac
this is slowly starting to become a filler subject for me, i don't pay much attention to it and i don't feel like i have to pay that much attention either. I've been doing pretty okay on my tests all year round, they have been good but i know I'm capable of doing much better. same goes for the sac where i did well but not nearly as high as i would have hoped. i did end up scoring in the first quintile tho which is the top 20% of my cohort and I'm pleased about that but i know that i could have gone a higher score had i have taken my time to read the questions properly and had the proper information that i needed in my reference notes, otherwise I'm pretty happy with how this subject has been going.
methods: 3 tests
since the last time i posted i said i wanted to do more study before my tests occurred, and although i didn't start immediately i have noticed my work ethic for methods is slowly improving which I'm pretty happy with. apart from that my scores for methods have been pretty consistent and i would like to keep steadily doing more work as i am now.
specialist: 1 test and in the middle of my sac right now
we had a test on complex numbers and circular trigonometry which was honestly a 50/50 test but we never got the test back so i have absolutely no clue how that went. to be completely honest i have no idea how I'm performing in this class but it is what it is. today we finished the first of a three part sac and i can genuinely say i am fairly happy with the way it panned out. truly expected to come out of there crying but THANK THE LORD. don't wanna say too much because i still have to do the other two parts but i feel relieved with the way today went.
whats left in this term:
-other two parts of the spec sac (this week)(week 6)
-general test (week 6)
-methods test (week 6)
-english text response on high ground (week 7)
-general financial math sac (week 8)
-methods sac (week 9)
-english oral (week 9)
lets try to finish the term off strong!!
i have my 18th birthday this Saturday so I'm pretty excited about that. a little crazy to think that I'm actually becoming an adult and its probably time to mature up a little. also scary to think that school is gonna end in around 14 weeks. the last 14 weeks of my highschool life, I'm relieved its over but I'm gonna miss these times and the people I've met.
anyways that's another post down
reminder to prioritise urself over school and expectations, mental health comes before anything else
stay strong yr 12s
i believe in yall
-me too