Woww, I'm feeling seriously bittersweet. After the longest awaiting, the test is actually approaching. Time has really flown by these past few months and I'm feeling a lot more emotional than I thought I would ever be towards such a seemingly small part of my life. I blame all you for these sweet imaginings and heartfelt messages (thank you all for the wishes and help!) and honestly it's been a ride!
Somehow, this is really some sort of conclusion, a conclusion to so much work, effort, practice and support I've received. I'm not sure why, but as the test comes closer, I'm starting to feel so proud and hopeful. Reading through the info email, thinking about that anxious feeling of entering the venue. Getting IDs checked, taking steps into the building and taking last thoughts before a huge event. The shaky thought of writing on a real, real test. No mock test, no practice, it's real, it's final. The freeing feeling of completion, after 4 hours, and seriously, I don't know how to describe how I feel, other than the strange mix of sweet, heartfelt and absolute terror.
Odd comparison, but I really think this is the feeling of starting to hear the end song play loudly, watching the end credits of a long, emotional movie. Teary eyed and ready to leave yet completely satisfied.
As everybody seems to be bidding farewells and giving their last notes before the day itself, I've felt the need to reciprocate this support that I've read and enjoyed so so much.
Thank you all for answering my questions, talking with me, sharing resources and just helping everybody out. This forum is such a great place and I've encountered incredible people who are all willing to help each other out!
To all of you do I wish the greatest, greatest, greatest luck and blessings for this test. And for all of you (and myself), we can do this together!!! We'll soon be stepping in our dream schools, beaming with pride wearing the uniform. I've never thought it'd be this dramatic, haha.
Just within 3 days, I've gone from stressed to the point of crying, motivated, hopeful, worried, heartfelt and finally this bittersweet feeling.
Thank you all again and huge huge wishes for not only myself, but every single one of you who are trying out!! 🙏😭
I can't believe soon enough, this thought will come to reality. It feels so unreal!! We'll all be in our venues, taking tests all at the very same time, possibly just meters apart! Maybe, just maybe, we can see each other and pass by without even knowing. We could be sitting next to each other and finally, concluding this journey together!!
Let's see what incredible future the world has planned, and let us enjoy our time before, during and finally, after the test.
