okay, im officially done

asianasen

i spent 1 year. one year after i missed second round. i spent one year after year 8 sehs test preparing for mhs entry.

i didnt get an offer as of rn, i know other people did, but im still unsure if offers are still gonna drop for mhs year 10 entry.
i believe i failed, even after 1 year of preparing. ive failed multiple times, spending often months of work in for tests.
this js adds another score to my failure checkmark.
though it may not be the end of my student journey, im mentally collapsed and don know what to do

im venting this cuz i dont fucking know what to do, school has retrogressed into a shithole and idk what to do anymore. i feel like its like the lowest ive been ----- a personal nadir

KingYen

asianasen Hey there, Failure isn't the end. The experiences you go through only help you grow stronger as a person, and remember, the test we're all here for is the VCE tests. You shouldn't take it out on yourself, no matter how hard it may seem. It really isn't a 'failure checkmark' but a learning experience. You have a large support group here and you can always talk to any of us if you need.

KingYen

asianasen Could you move back to your old school if this one is trash?

Hi, I'm new

asianasen
I promise that not getting into a selective school, no matter how many times, doesn't define you. It doesn't define you intellectually or what you've achieved. I believe in you bro, take small steps and don't rush processes.

chxin

asianasen you are gonna do big things, trust me bro, idk if u believe in god but hes testing u, ur hardwork will NOT go to waste, i promise u, remember me when u make it.

Sleepy

asianasen listen, i know that saying that this is js a 'learning experience' isn't gonna magically make anyone feel better (although it is true), but I feel like the best thing you cam do it confront your feelings. Definitely talk to people you trust and don't think that ur feelings aren't valid. Also, you are NOT a failure, because in ten years no one's gonna remember u not getting into mhs, they're gonna remember who u r then, so really from now on, focus on yourself and (ik kingyen and hi, i'm new alr said this) take small steps and ready yourself for the next task which is vce. Also ik your skl isnt the best rn, but remember a few things, 1. you got haileybury next yr, 2. you still have a fair shot for jmss and 3. if you wanna succeed - you can do well at any school.

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asianasen oof, cl crash out as much as u want rn. Cus when you get it all out you'll feel a lot better.

🪼stevejobs

asianasen I understand how you feel after failing the sehs exam it feels like a void ig , its confusing and almost feels unbelievable if you thought you were going to pass. But this exam doesn't define who you are , the knowlege you retained will help you even if your not at your dream school. I promise you what your feeling is almost like your sleeping , I mean your gonna wake up no matter how hard it feels to get up. When you graduate from whatever school ur in 2029 you will be so proud of yourself , landing in Monash or Melb Uni whatever with proud parents and a great atar. There is four years left whether anyone passed or failed it's who you are and what you do that counts. It always ends up okay. You will probably realise in a few years that this exam that you didn't pass was nothing but a bump to your road to success.

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ash73

asianasen its ok. god gives us the stuff we need, not want. just bcuz you kept on getting rejected or missed, doesnt mean you failed. they are many oppurtunities to come. we must take them and try again and again, until we win. never give up! keep working hard! and success will follow you. besides you still jmss and haileybury, dont lost hope yet, and even if you dont get in, its fine. it will never be the end of the world. the next step is to get a good atar and work towards our goal!

🤍ヾ(•ω•`)o

asianasen It's okay, the motivation you got there to prepare that much beat most people, and that's definitely gonna help you a lot in the future. maybe try for scholarship if you really dislike your old school?

whisper

asianasen hey i understand exactly how you feel and i promise you are not alone and absolutely not a failure. you are so much more than the results of that test and trust me when i say you've accomplished and succeeded more things than you have failed at. even if you don't notice it, it's the little things that count like getting yourself out of bed every single day despite feeling like a blob of wet cement. if you don't believe me, i want you to start a 'Portfolio of Truth'. every day whenever you do something that makes you proud of yourself (idc how small it is it can be anything) you write the date down and what it was. over time you're gonna see just how many thing you've done.

it's totally okay to let yourself feel your feels right now, but try gently lifting yourself out of the dumps. go for an evening walk every day, binge watch your favourite show, whatever you like doing. i hope you feel better soon, and remember that when you're 85 you're not even gonna think of selective. and don't worry because everything always works out. 🫶

asianasen

i dont feel motivated to study nor do i want to play games, ive been staring blankly at things for the past week; i dont feel sane

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asianasen

Don't worry bro. I've been there. Well, I sure have stared at things blankly and felt like there is no point to anything. And people will tell you, "do small wins!," altho that never helped me. I wanted to see big results, and small wins didn't help. But here's what I recommend doing:

Meet with that one best friend. The one you click with the most.

'Cause my friends and I we get along pretty well. But this one primary school friend I just really click with him. Everything is so not judged, easy going when I'm around him. And so I met with him today, and I felt better than ever.

Hope that helps

PS. Sorry if my post was really shit ;D

JMSS_hopefully

asianasen this lwk me rn

KingYen

Hi, I'm new I respect this. This should be for all to see

chxin

Sleepy I FORGOT HES GOING TO HAILEYBURY

KingYen

chxin Wasn't he at another aps school?

Sleepy

KingYen I think Wesley

KingYen

Sleepy Ohhh right! I think I remember it now!

MauryanBroski

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MauryanBroski thx love u