POST 4 - 24/01/24
hi! i’ve been meaning to write some stuff here but my motivation levels have been 📉📉📉📉 and my procrastination levels 📈📈📈📈. at least i know that’s where i have to fix before school starts next week. to be honest, i have really mixed emotions regarding school starting again. i’m excited because it’s my last year at high school and then i get to take a gap year before i start university. but in saying that, i’m also quite sad because it is going to involve a lot of “last’s.” last camp. last year in that environment. last everything really. i’ve been sitting on the idea of vlogging the last year, just to document the best and worst of year 12. and coming to think of it, it would be a really great idea, because i get to take my mind off school when i’m editing (my skills are really bad we won’t talk about that) and making a really nice video to remember my last year at school. it’s just a shame phones are banned at school, because then i could use my phone and have all my videos and photos there, but i guess a perk of having an ipad is that i can use that to record, even if logging an ipad around all day is a bit weird. at least i’ll get a reputation of ipad kid lmao.
i still haven’t finished reading ‘we have always lived in the castle’ for english. i’m on chapter 7 (out of 10) and it is really really boring. but i do have my own theories that i love to speculate on, perks of being a swiftie is that these skills are really good. like, charles is such a gold digger it is actually unbearable to see a man act like that, but to be honest, it’s more merricat who i love speculating about. especially after post-reddit surfing, i suspect even more now that merricat is a lesbian who is crushing on her sister. but that would make such a good point for analysis, because lesbian-ism (is that a word) is such a disapproved area of life that, in the 1960’s where this book is set, is highly disregarded amongst everyone. even though we are told that merricat is weird because she poisoned her family, maybe this crush towards her sister lead to her not wanting to kill her (i’m just insane but it /could/ work).
i finally made a start on my extended investigation (EI) work yesterday. i feel like i’m taking for granted the independence i have for this subject, and am yet to realise how much self-motivation i need in order to get work done. the most boring part of this subject is definitely the reading, but it has to be done, so i have to suck it up, but i can’t wait to start writing that 4000 word report. yes, you read that right… i am excited to write a 4000 word report. i’m not absurd, i just really really like writing and i feel like this will develop my skills and really benefit me. i’m still sticking with the topic of sleep myths, heading towards the research question of “how do sleep myths influence the amount of quality sleep in adolescents?” measuring quality sleep is difficult, because there’s a bunch of criteria which is hard to measure without fancy equipment like smartwatches, which most teenagers don’t have to help measure. and then there’s the sleep myths component that i am unsure how i’m going to incorporate alongside quality sleep, but i have until march 1st to submit a formal research question to vcaa.
in terms of my other three subjects - general math, business management, and psychology - i’ve been doing work to get ahead in those classes, just because there’s a lot of time in the first two weeks where class is going to be interrupted. and i have study camp on february 5 and 6, and dare i say, i really don’t want to go. it’s at unimelb and from what i heard, the food shouldn’t even be called that. i’m just going to ask mum to cook some rice and i’ll eat in my room at midnight T-T. people from other schools always rave about their study camps, and i just feel like either everyone in my school is extremely whiny or it really is bad. also, why do they call it study camp? when i was in year 7 and the study camp was brought up at assembly, i was like “how cruel is this school, they take kids on camp to make them study!?” but turns out it isn’t like that (thankfully).
anywho, i have my learners (for like 13 months) but i finally passed 50 hours of driving, which is super relieving because it’s a milestone, and if i drive to and from school, and a bit on the weekend, i’ll be able to build up my 120 hours. and i just googled, if i was in western australia, i would have enough to get my P-plate’s right now, because the amount is only 50 hours. south australia is 80 hours. and there is no amount in the northern territory, just confidence which is so unfair because i could be driving to school every day, instead having to walk an agonising 20 minutes (it isn’t that bad).
hopefully i stick to updating this thing as school starts, and thanks for reading if you made it this far. bye!!
