FH I think we have always lived in the castle is a well written book yet not a genre I'd ever read for fun. I'm honestly not a big fan on any of the characters but it is pretty simple for analysis which is nice, plus having a shorter book is nice because not as many quotes to pick from to memorise come exam season. I know we keep looking at the idea of female empowerment in the novel, but I feel like half the time when we have 'empowered' female characters in novels they're just unlikable characters, or at least very hard to like (e.g Medea, Merricat), which is probably reflective on society but it still sucks how the novels with femenist themes tend to just have the women killing people because of their emotions. Plus I know Charles is like designed to be hated and stuff because he's manipulative but I feel Merricat manipulated Constance just as much, just with different motivations than Charles, as Charles was obviously after money and social standing whereas Merricat wanted control and to be the centre of Constance's world. It's just Merricat literally started fires and killed people for what she wanted wheras Charles kind of just spent his time whinging about money. Honestly I know the sisters were happy at the end but I feel like Constance could have been happy if she went with Helen Clarke at the end and made friends with people who weren't Merricat to help her re-enter society and overcome her manipulation/control a bit. Tbh the best characters in my opinion were Uncle Julian, Jim Clarke and Mrs Wright. Sorry if that's a bit long lol.
We use edrolo too, just the videos though, but I mainly watch them after finishing a topic from our textbook because I prefer the more in depth look at topics (plus i learn better from reading/notes than videos) but the little topic tests/question breakdowns on edrolo can be helpful sometimes.
I think we're getting the breakdown on consent laws later in the year, and yeah ours was engaging, kinda awkward but interesting.
You probably will see me around the forum because it's my go-to form of procrastination (currently meant to be doing English..) and I hope you do manage to take on the advice at some stage lol.
my year 12 vce journal!! (hope you enjoy the ride)
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POST 7 - 14/02/24
oh hi! i normally do a recap thing here on friday’s, but as taylor swift will be in melbourne, that time will be dedicated to watching grainy youtube livestreams of the event since getting tickets was almost as hard as getting into harvard.
before i start talking endlessly, i really hope everyone in victoria is okay after the wild weather yesterday. if you’re being affected by the bushfires, please keep safe, and soldier on. and i really hope everything turns out alright in the end.
this week has been abysmally busy. i’m literally typing this right now with my eyes half closed, trying to stay awake and do work (procrastinating). i have this really huge reliance on caffeine the last two weeks, which i’m not too happy on but it’s at a manageable level. i’m not addicted or anything, but i don’t want to drink coffee every morning to have some level of alertness. i’ve always loved coffee, and drunk it because i loved it, not because i’m lacking sleep and can’t sleep.
I HAVE MY FIRST SAC NEXT WEEK. i don’t know whether i should be excited or not. it is for business management, so if history repeats itself from year 11, i should be fine if i study the same amount. i’m also doing a lot more practice questions, which is good because my teacher has only assigned a few textbook questions. but we have an exam-style question booklet to study for the sac, but i also bought a $35 practice exam collection that breaks down each area of study into questions. that sac is next friday, last period. which is absolutely cruel. but shit happens, and whining about it isn’t going to make it any better. thank goodness i have a double study period right before the sac, so i have over 3 hours to prepare on the friday.
i also found out that my first english sac is going to be in around a weeks time. AND IT’S AFTER SCHOOL. i’m devastated. because english sac’s (specifically analysis) have 90 minutes writing time, meaning the sac will finish up at like 5:15pm, and i’ll be missing my extended investigation online class. the week before my english sac i should have TWO sacs after school for general and psychology, so probably going to miss a lot of online class. i am really loving english right now. i’ve always been the english student (my table group in year 11 called me the ‘english major’ which was stupid because i averaged B’s [one of the best in the class which was a testament to the lack of effort my year 11 class put in]). my teacher is so sweet. today she gave us ferrero rocher chocolates for valentine’s day, which was a small but incredibly nice gesture. but she also provides really timely feedback, and feedback that matters. her classes are engaging, and is actually helping me expand my english skills.
OMG I FORGOT TO MENTION I GOT 100% ON THE TOPIC TEST FOR GENERAL. i know, general is super easy, but i have to satisfy my ego, so this 100% really boosted it. i literally boosted myself from the last test when i got 70%, but i didn’t try as hard on that one as i did on this. my teacher was shocked too because of such a large jump in my grade, but i hate when people underestimate my abilities based on a mediocre grade. the first test was 2 weeks after my final year 11 exams, and i really couldn’t be bothered trying. it was the first time i’ve ever been satisfied with a grade like that for general.
that’s all with school, because nothing really has happened this week (it’s been super dull and everyone is sad because we all have sacs). if you’re after some tea, there’s a massive hole in one of the showers in my home… the grouting (i think that’s what it’s called), gave way, and the tiles collapsed while someone was showering. thank god there’s two showers. that’s getting fixed at like 9am (tradie time) so i doubt i’m getting a sleep in this weekend because i have to go to an 80th birthday lunch to attend on sunday.
if anyone is going to taylor swift this weekend, i want to hear all about it. what surprise songs are you hoping for? i need to put in my surprise song bingo guesses for these show (i’m playing with a friend).
bye for now!!
PS: i didn’t check for spelling mistakes hope you can work around the mistakes which probably linger this post.
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POST 8 - 22/02/24
it’s been a long time coming. no, not miss americana and the heartbreak prince, i’m talking about the exhaustion and frustration that comes along with year 12 (queue the sighs). don’t get me wrong… i AM enjoying my final year of high school, but i’m not. i am going to have to admit that no one was lying by saying the work load is crazy, because it is so intense and i feel that i don’t have time to actually process what i’m learning about - i’m going from chapter to chapter with mini-quizzes to consolidate my knowledge but i don’t have the time to actually absorb all that knowledge. i don’t even know if that makes sense, or if it’s just me, but yeah that was that (?)
school as a whole though is going really well. i’m raking in the 100’s for general math like a kid on halloween, which is super crucial for my ego (the 100’s, not the candy [maybe the candy tbh]). i just know i’m going to crack under exam/ sac pressure and watch me go down a grade and a half. my teacher is encouraging me and my friend to go ahead, which is cool because teachers hated that in previous year levels, so i’m like almost 4 weeks ahead of the planner. i don’t wanna get so ahead of the curve that the curve becomes a sphere, but the goal is to smash out content by the end of june and just thrive on practice exams (only for general).
english is boring. if you are reading we have always lived in the castle, i am very sorry and i understand your pain… we are in the same boat. i DID get a 72 on my english practice thingy, which beats the 44 from last year. my english teachers mark harsher than the vcaa examiners so that 72 is more of an A, but the school loves being rough!
i have my first ever business sac (and sac altogether) tomorrow, and the nerves are setting in. i’m working on practice questions tonight and i get my study periods that fall right before it so i am not too worried, considering i did really well last year in business, but i don’t like to get my hopes up. i have done many practice questions, i just need to get on top of management skills and the corporate culture definitions, and i should be fine.
psychology is a mental struggle, alongside EI. EI isn’t bad, just wayyyy too much reading (and i love reading.) my teachers are nice and all, but there’s so much to do in both subjects that i find it demotivating.
what i do find motivating however is the eras tour. if your going to be following along with this blog page over the next year, you are going to (if you haven’t already) realised i am 113% obsessed with taylor swift. not her personally, but her music. i’ve been watching all the eras tour livestreams on youtube for her australian shows, including the sydney ones over the next four days, which have been so much fun because it’s the next best thing since i had no hope to get my hands on tickets. i just study with the livestreams in the background, and i get. shit. done. so i just listen to taylor swift when i study because it gets me going. i also love to listen to wave to earth, hattus, and ichiko aoba when studying because they’re so calming to listen to.
i don’t have school next wednesday, because curriculum day (slay!?). might work on my bound reference that day, might go city, i don’t know yet. (EDIT: NO FREAKING WAY I’M GOING TO THE CITY IT’S 40ºC). i have the top talks next friday which is going to be exciting, becauseeeee i get a day out of school. con… i have to catch up. probably do it on the train ride to and from melbourne central, because it beats staring at my phone unproductively.
OH THERE’S THIS NEW LIBRARIAN AT SCHOOL AND SHE’S A SWIFTIE. i’ve spent a lot of time talking to her about taylor swift over the last week, but she is so nice so i don’t care to be social for once.
that’s all from me for now. until next time, stay safe everyone and remember, a 99.95 atar isn’t good enough, aim for the 100 (i am joking just want to clarify). remember i never check for spelling errors, you’re on your own for that one!
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POST 9 - 28/02/24
hello, mr casually cruel, being the craziness of year 12. officially in the fifth week of this treacherous journey, and i don’t hate it but i am not loving it either. study periods are proving to be super beneficial for me because i’m able to smash out all my homework and solely focus on revising at home, which is great i guess. today is a curriculum day for me, which i am using to make my bound reference for general and do my extended investigation written task (i’ll talk about that later) and sac revision for both psychology and general.
i did a practice english sac yesterday for the novel ‘we have always lived in the castle.’ i chose the hardest prompt because at first glance i thought it would be easy, but it was a ‘how’ prompt so i didn’t really link my whole essay to that. but hey, they call it practice for a reason! i have my real sac in two weeks after school, so that will be interesting. to be honest, english is the only subject that i am fine with getting a 70% in because the teachers (sac’s get marked by two teachers) mark harsher than the vcaa examiners.
psychology is also going well. i did a topic test the other day on the second half of area of study 1 and got a 78 (should’ve been 86 if i didn’t make stupid mistakes + worded clearer) but it was also practice AND i didn’t study, so i can live with that. my psychology teacher is so good (i feel like i say this every time) but she explains every time in a detailed yet simple way and the concepts just stick to be. my sac for that is next monday and also after school. i have no idea how long it goes for because they haven’t made anything clear other than it being a case study and being after school.
i also have my general math sac after school next week (i’m going to talk about this whole after school sac dilemma) which goes for about 90 minutes so i’ll finish it around 5pm T_T. i haven’t even started studying or practicing, but i feel very motivated today so i’m using that to my advantage.
business management is fine. i did the sac last friday and am quite confident, probably going to lose a mark or two for sure but it isn’t the end of the world. i have no business classes this week because the school likes to throw spanners into the timetabling (and i’m not at school for my friday class meaning i miss that too) so i have to do some stuff at home in my own time which i am not devastated about. i love working at my own pace, it is so much less stressful.
extended investigation is also going great. i hope my teachers don’t roam this website, because confession: i did absolutely no work for the subject last week and submitted my work two days late AND haven’t read any articles like what was expected. the articles are a huge pain in the ass, so don’t blame me for not wanting to read them. they’re tedious, wordy, and so many have been irrelevant to what i want to read. i have to submit a 500 word response that justifies my research methodology, that (surprise) i haven’t started. that’s due friday oops. i should do that today if i feel like it, or i’ll do it on the train ride to the city on friday for toptalks if i don’t get stuck standing during peak hour. i’m also meeting with a long-time online friend that day, and we are meeting at an aesthetic japanese cafe which is going to be amazing (matcha for life). also matcha does NOT taste like grass i don’t want to hear it T-T.
i love talking so much, so i’m going to talk about why my school does (most of) the sac’s after school. a lot of it is for authentication, so like if we did our english one’s during class, people will share the prompts, because they got circulated from monday when some classes did it before mine. fair enough. same with general, because people probably will write questions in their bound reference and share it around. one year, which is why we do them after school, some kids did a sac before their friend, and wrote answers in the bound reference to share. for a question that had part a, b, c etc., the kid who did the sac later answered parts b and c, and didn’t answer a, which you needed for the later parts of that question and suspicions were raised. like, if you want to cheat, please put some effort in doing it properly!? so we have to do them after school. psychology i’m not too sure why we do after school. but fun fact, the teachers don’t get paid for supervising our exams, which sucks for them because it is their time, and many of them have families, so doing unpaid overtime is a bit poor on the governments behalf. and then they wonder why teachers are leaving the job in record numbers…
i’ll stop talking because i want to do my bound reference, but i hope everyone is taking care of themselves throughout this stressful year. take breaks, relax, and don’t overwork yourselves because you need you’re energy for october and november. bye for now!!
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POST 10 - 01/03/24
hi! i have no taylor swift inspired quote to start this little update, but my school IS doing something taylor swift inspired next week and i definitely want to talk about that later.
i got my business sac back today. there are two business classes at my school, and the class average for the other class was (drum roll please) 46% which is super shocking. (EDIT: my class average was 44%)i got 79%, which i believe is the top in both classes. i am also very shocked because i dropped from high 90’s and 100’s to getting not even an 80%. i feel like it is the cross marking method, because my teacher is super nice with marking whereas the other is beyond harsh. that 50 study score is out of the picture now!! i got 92% for a practice test for general and 95% on a practice sac, so at least the 50 study score is possible still i guess.
i also went to the city today to watch the vce top talks, which are 4 of the best EI oral presentations which was super fun. if any EI kids want to look at the notes i took down, i uploaded them here but they aren’t approved so they’re not up. i’m going to put this in the EI atarnotes discussion page because we are all in this together i guess.
that’s sort of it with school. motivation has been sub zero, hence second post in a week, but my school is doing a friendship bracelet thing next week, and the winner gets the official taylor swift eras tour bag which i want so FREAKING bad. i have people trying to win it for me, and i want to go all strategic on it because i am competitive enough as it is, let alone when there is a taylor swift item of merch on the line.
anywho hope anyone who reads this is going well, and stick in there… 242 days until the english exam (yay) (not really).
FH Well done on topping both business classes for your SAC and at least if your teachers are marking harshly you could still have your score moderated up by the end of the year.
Goodluck on getting your eras tour bag!
Rey_of_sunshine HAHA yeah i am really hoping for moderation, because the SAC was incredibly hard. and thanks for the good luck with the tote bag; i was joking with a friend this morning that if i don’t win it, the person who does might end up with a broken nose (i AM joking i can’t punch if my life depended on it) T-T
FH lol, I like the implication that your ability to punch is the only thing holding you back. And yeah honestly if it was incredinly hard you've got good chances at moderation, I thought my SAC's for food studies last year were reasonably easy and they still got moderated up
POST 11 - 06/03/24
sigh. i am TIRED. like, i-just-did-two-all-nighters-with-a-lot-of-caffeine tired. i did not do two all nighters, and i’m off caffeine (don’t ask me that tomorrow morning), but i’m just really tired from school. i got home around 5:30pm after completing my general math sac after school, which wasn’t the only after school sac this week; i had psychology on monday. before i talk about school, my personal life is more exciting so you will hear about that first.
if you remember from my very first blog post (seems like a lifetime ago), i saw conan gray back in 2022. and he is coming back to australia!! bad thing is, i have some personal stuff going on right now so i can’t exactly ask my dad if it is ok to go, but i am bringing it up tomorrow again because tickets are on sale friday morning, and i am even considering taking the first two periods off to get them. it is so hard to outline why it is important and a need that i go. it is the opening night in the world, which australia never gets, so i would be getting all the live debuts from his new album (out april 5, you will be hearing about it more then for sure). it is also during the school holidays in winter, meaning i won’t miss any school (perk) and IT’S CONAN GRAY. he literally got me from the darkest of places in 2021/22 (the internet isn’t a good place to overshare, but you get his significance to me). so please wish me luck.
anyway… school (pulls disgusted faces).
it isn’t going bad. the general sac i did today went really well - if i don’t get above a 90 i think the school oval might have some burnt grass, metaphorically of course (not really). my psych sac was also alright, just some questions really stumped me. anything to do with the nervous system i’m just like, nope, i’m out. i think i talked about the spinal reflex for the somatic nervous system, but that isn’t going to severely drag me down i guess. i feel like i just need to get on top of the stress component that occurs before the sac. before all my sacs so far, i have had really crippling stomach pains, which is not good because i had to go hospital for that the night before my unit 1 exams last year. might take up meditation, it’ll definitely help me sleep. i have my english sac after school next tuesday, so thank goodness it is 39 degrees on saturday and sunday i’m just going to study (beats getting sizzled).
EI is going alright. i’m slowly putting together my research, slightly altering my topic depending on what i’m finding. still sticking to the sport and motivators in female adolescence topic, because it is a huge gap in the literature and stuff that i can find only dates back to the 1980’s. i am also not demotivated like i was for my previous three topics… i literally completed all the weeks work in 2 days, which is amazing because i normally hand my work in 2 days late all the time. the sac for that is approaching, and i’m a little scared to be honest. i am not a good writer academically - we did this sort of practice thing last week and it took me an hour and a half to write up 700ish words, but there was a lot of contemplation and uncertainty and to be honest, i didn’t even know if it made sense. i just try sounding fancy and hope for the best, lets be honest here.
that is sort of it for now… i don’t really have much more to talk about. i’m probably 2 minutes away from crawling into bed and sleeping because i don’t even want to do homework tonight. i have three study periods tomorrow. on monday, i had five study periods, because 3 classes got cancelled due to teacher absences so i had literally one single that day. also, sort of regretting not doing ei through ches… i just feel like it is going to be really hard to perform well with vsv. watch this space i guess. hope everyone is well, and take care!! listen to rock music, be emo, live life T-T
POST 12 - 10/03/24
oh. my. god. if you recall last entry, i talked about how conan gray was touring australia in july. and guess who got tickets!!?? i actually got them this morning, because my parents were really indecisive whether i should be allowed to go, and i have such a wonderful charm (when i want stuff from them) and they said i can get tickets!! they were back of the arena kind-of tickets, but they were almost sold out and i’m going so that’s the important thing. i really need to watch how much i have spent for concerts since 2022 — this is my third and i’ve spent $636 on tickets and around $600 on merchandise, which is a lot for someone who doesn’t even have a job (i got all the money from my parents lol). so the concert is in 4 months in the winter holidays and a few days before term 3 starts, and they are right after my practice exams which run during the holidays so i am really grateful he decided to tour during the break.
school has also been eh… i am super grateful for the long weekend. i have my english sac after school on tuesday, which i feel prepared for but i am manifesting some really good prompts. i know quotes, i know the analysis, i just need something worth while to put it to. i don’t really believe in studying for english, because it is solely up to what i get on the day. i just need to know what to write and how to write it, and once i have that, my ideas have flexibility to be used and linked to many themes.
i got my general sac back on friday. i did great, but not as good as i wanted. i got an 85% and i expected that to be honest. i know i made so many stupid errors, but it was after school and i was so tired so to get what i got i am content with it. funny story; the question asked to apply a transformation to the data, so i chose a log(y) transformation because i prefer to work with log(y) to be honest and it was suitable for the data. and then we had to predict a value of height using that equation. i transformed the wrong variable, meaning when i calculated the height, i got 19600cm tall. it is so funny looking back at it, because when i was doing that question and got that answer i was freaking out because i couldn’t figure out what i had done wrong. long story short, she was 160cm tall, so i was VERY close.
psychology and business management are fine. same with EI. school is just so boring right now… i cannot wait until the school holidays because i love easter so much.
hope everyone is staying cool this weekend if you are in victoria, because it is super hot. drink heaps!
POST 13 - 16/03/2024
hi! i don’t want to ramble on like i normally do, but no promises T_T. this week of school has been… interesting. we FINALLY finished ‘we have always lived in the castle’ on tuesday after school, because that was when the sac was. the prompts were really good — i chose ‘jackson presents a pessimistic view on relationships. discuss’ which was really easy to generate quotes and link it to. they have already been marked, but are being moderated on monday. they mark super harsh, like, way harsher than the vcaa examiners, so if i get a 70% i will be content because i know it would be a bit higher if it was an exam.
business management has been great. i’m actually ranked number 1 in my school, which is such an ego boost. it is sort of easy to be ranked one when the class averages are like 40% and 43%. i just don’t like how my teacher names me as the top scorer for every sac or assessed test we do… it is really embarrassing. like i am proud of my achievements, but a lot of this years class is the same as last years, and i was getting named top of the class every single test last year. it just makes me perceived as a nerd, which i’m not i just work hard T-T.
speaking of working hard, i’ve been working ahead in general and am a month and a half ahead of the class. myself and my friend have been working ahead together, and sort of making it a competition who can finish the course first. we also want to try doing over 80 practice exams for general math, which is the school record. it’s sort of fun to have an informal competition to work towards… it keeps me motivated and wanting to do general. i’m up to finance solver, which is so painful from last year so i hope i don’t flunk it like i did last year.
psychology and EI are the same. i have my EI sac on the last week of term, which will be interesting because i have NO idea what i am supposed to do. hopefully it gets explained next week because i am truly in the dark.
anywho, hope everyone has been taking care of themselves and SCHOOL HOLIDAYS ARE IN TWO WEEKS!!!
It's awesome to read this, so jealous you got all the classes I wanted to do for Year 12, instead I'm stuck with leftovers -v-
School has been such a sporadic mess for me, although it kind of always has been. Both me and my family don't really care if I pass VCE, but reading your journey (struggles, goals and successes) will be fun! (I'm meant to be finishing my Art Folio right now but don't tell my teacher that)
I'm a HUGE Music and Drama nerd so it's also cool to see you adore music that much! Personally I was in the top 0.0001% for Post Malone and Plain White T's last year (I need help)
I'm curious, has your school always had SACs at after-school times? Ours are normally during normal class periods so It's a bit weird seeing that you have an English SAC after-school.
For reference if we have any conversation here;
Art Marking & Exhibiting - (not by choice, 100% gonna fail
General Math - (Got high marks last year, missed a lot of days and got really low for my first SAC, not expecting much improvement but you never know! finding a CAS calculator is going to be hard though since mine from last year got stolen...)
Food Studies - (Love it, Hate the teacher. Probably gonna get low marks though since I hate annotating)
Visual Communications - (I ABSOLUTELY adore this class and the teacher, it's such a carefree environment and we are essentially allowed to do anything as long as we get the work done in time, hands down my favorite class I have ever been in and I'm praying for high marks.)
General English (While I love writing stories and normally get high marks in free writing, I'm struggling with the Film analysis work and I'm probably gonna fail that SAC, I just don't have the attention span to watch AND analyze a movie that I find so boring. ("High Ground" if your curious)
After writing all that I realized holy crap that's a lot, hopefully it didn't completely bombard you >.>
Overall it seems like we are polar opposites for Year 12, I'm taking it easy and not really caring too much about grades and scores while your putting in the effort and striving for an incredible result.
FH
I can 100% understand that if you don't have a good biology teacher (ig that goes for all subjects) then you're going to be like a confused and lost chicken. I wish you luck for your other subjects, Year 12 seems like a pain
I can relate to being a book reader but unable to read because of school Also you listen to enhypen? whats your favourite enhypen song?
monolith my admiration for music is really crazy. i listen to music almost every waking second to the point i have hearing difficulties. and for the sac’s, the school council has voted on this years ago. we even have practice exams during the winter and spring holidays, so that is something.
your subjects seem so cool - art seems like a really laid back subject but i have ZERO artistic skills so i wouldn’t really know that. so many people are doing high ground for english, i am certain it would be more interesting than our novel we did (we have always lived in the castle).
and no, you didn’t bombard me. i enjoy reading others school life, because i really have nothing to do with my life T-T. also it must have taken a while to read everything here HOW DID YOU DO IT!!?!?
Yona biology was so painful in 2023, i am so relieved to drop it. and yes, year 12 is extremely painful… i’m surprise i haven’t burned out yet (i’m really close to it though).
and yessss i LOVE enhypen - they were my 4th most listened to artist last year. my favourite song is probably that feeling when or chaconne. what is your favourite?
FH
Pretty much same for music! At any point I can I have music playing, I think last year for my spotify wrapped I had ~ 300,000 minutes listened.
It's cool to hear that your school council actually does stuff, ours kind of just lays about and organizes maybe one small event/fundraiser a year. It's mostly run by administration but their are 2 designated spots for students.
For exams/SAC's, we have always done them in class time. Normally we study the topic in class for a few weeks, spend a week on practice sacs or revision then we do the SAC's during class periods.
Art SHOULD be fun and laid back, but my Art teacher makes everything boring and tiring. They are always grumpy for no reason and are honestly just an annoyance while trying to do work. It's painful to attempt to get work done during art class because I can't have any time to myself during it. I was hoping on dropping the class but it's far too late for that.
I believe we are studying a novel after High Ground, not too sure what novel though. Not really looking forward to it either way.
I was actually procrastinating my overdue art folio work by scrolling through ATAR Notes which ended up bringing me to your thread, so now I'm here I guess.
monolith yeah it is great and all that my school council does stuff, but that means i lose a lot of personal time due to after school sacs and school holiday exams. but at least we don’t get bombarded with holiday homework. i feel like we do these kinds of things outside of class time is to have more class time to study and perfect the content, which doesn’t really show in my school since so many class averages are below 50%. looks good for my scores at least LMAO.
and i completely get the scrolling through this forum. i have two study periods monday morning and i just did my bound reference, and now i can’t be bothered!! it is either here or reddit, because my school hasn’t blocked reddit yet. hope i don’t jinx it T_T