FH lol, I like the implication that your ability to punch is the only thing holding you back. And yeah honestly if it was incredinly hard you've got good chances at moderation, I thought my SAC's for food studies last year were reasonably easy and they still got moderated up
my year 12 vce journal!! (hope you enjoy the ride)
POST 11 - 06/03/24
sigh. i am TIRED. like, i-just-did-two-all-nighters-with-a-lot-of-caffeine tired. i did not do two all nighters, and i’m off caffeine (don’t ask me that tomorrow morning), but i’m just really tired from school. i got home around 5:30pm after completing my general math sac after school, which wasn’t the only after school sac this week; i had psychology on monday. before i talk about school, my personal life is more exciting so you will hear about that first.
if you remember from my very first blog post (seems like a lifetime ago), i saw conan gray back in 2022. and he is coming back to australia!! bad thing is, i have some personal stuff going on right now so i can’t exactly ask my dad if it is ok to go, but i am bringing it up tomorrow again because tickets are on sale friday morning, and i am even considering taking the first two periods off to get them. it is so hard to outline why it is important and a need that i go. it is the opening night in the world, which australia never gets, so i would be getting all the live debuts from his new album (out april 5, you will be hearing about it more then for sure). it is also during the school holidays in winter, meaning i won’t miss any school (perk) and IT’S CONAN GRAY. he literally got me from the darkest of places in 2021/22 (the internet isn’t a good place to overshare, but you get his significance to me). so please wish me luck.
anyway… school (pulls disgusted faces).
it isn’t going bad. the general sac i did today went really well - if i don’t get above a 90 i think the school oval might have some burnt grass, metaphorically of course (not really). my psych sac was also alright, just some questions really stumped me. anything to do with the nervous system i’m just like, nope, i’m out. i think i talked about the spinal reflex for the somatic nervous system, but that isn’t going to severely drag me down i guess. i feel like i just need to get on top of the stress component that occurs before the sac. before all my sacs so far, i have had really crippling stomach pains, which is not good because i had to go hospital for that the night before my unit 1 exams last year. might take up meditation, it’ll definitely help me sleep. i have my english sac after school next tuesday, so thank goodness it is 39 degrees on saturday and sunday i’m just going to study (beats getting sizzled).
EI is going alright. i’m slowly putting together my research, slightly altering my topic depending on what i’m finding. still sticking to the sport and motivators in female adolescence topic, because it is a huge gap in the literature and stuff that i can find only dates back to the 1980’s. i am also not demotivated like i was for my previous three topics… i literally completed all the weeks work in 2 days, which is amazing because i normally hand my work in 2 days late all the time. the sac for that is approaching, and i’m a little scared to be honest. i am not a good writer academically - we did this sort of practice thing last week and it took me an hour and a half to write up 700ish words, but there was a lot of contemplation and uncertainty and to be honest, i didn’t even know if it made sense. i just try sounding fancy and hope for the best, lets be honest here.
that is sort of it for now… i don’t really have much more to talk about. i’m probably 2 minutes away from crawling into bed and sleeping because i don’t even want to do homework tonight. i have three study periods tomorrow. on monday, i had five study periods, because 3 classes got cancelled due to teacher absences so i had literally one single that day. also, sort of regretting not doing ei through ches… i just feel like it is going to be really hard to perform well with vsv. watch this space i guess. hope everyone is well, and take care!! listen to rock music, be emo, live life T-T
POST 12 - 10/03/24
oh. my. god. if you recall last entry, i talked about how conan gray was touring australia in july. and guess who got tickets!!?? i actually got them this morning, because my parents were really indecisive whether i should be allowed to go, and i have such a wonderful charm (when i want stuff from them) and they said i can get tickets!! they were back of the arena kind-of tickets, but they were almost sold out and i’m going so that’s the important thing. i really need to watch how much i have spent for concerts since 2022 — this is my third and i’ve spent $636 on tickets and around $600 on merchandise, which is a lot for someone who doesn’t even have a job (i got all the money from my parents lol). so the concert is in 4 months in the winter holidays and a few days before term 3 starts, and they are right after my practice exams which run during the holidays so i am really grateful he decided to tour during the break.
school has also been eh… i am super grateful for the long weekend. i have my english sac after school on tuesday, which i feel prepared for but i am manifesting some really good prompts. i know quotes, i know the analysis, i just need something worth while to put it to. i don’t really believe in studying for english, because it is solely up to what i get on the day. i just need to know what to write and how to write it, and once i have that, my ideas have flexibility to be used and linked to many themes.
i got my general sac back on friday. i did great, but not as good as i wanted. i got an 85% and i expected that to be honest. i know i made so many stupid errors, but it was after school and i was so tired so to get what i got i am content with it. funny story; the question asked to apply a transformation to the data, so i chose a log(y) transformation because i prefer to work with log(y) to be honest and it was suitable for the data. and then we had to predict a value of height using that equation. i transformed the wrong variable, meaning when i calculated the height, i got 19600cm tall. it is so funny looking back at it, because when i was doing that question and got that answer i was freaking out because i couldn’t figure out what i had done wrong. long story short, she was 160cm tall, so i was VERY close.
psychology and business management are fine. same with EI. school is just so boring right now… i cannot wait until the school holidays because i love easter so much.
hope everyone is staying cool this weekend if you are in victoria, because it is super hot. drink heaps!
6 days later
POST 13 - 16/03/2024
hi! i don’t want to ramble on like i normally do, but no promises T_T. this week of school has been… interesting. we FINALLY finished ‘we have always lived in the castle’ on tuesday after school, because that was when the sac was. the prompts were really good — i chose ‘jackson presents a pessimistic view on relationships. discuss’ which was really easy to generate quotes and link it to. they have already been marked, but are being moderated on monday. they mark super harsh, like, way harsher than the vcaa examiners, so if i get a 70% i will be content because i know it would be a bit higher if it was an exam.
business management has been great. i’m actually ranked number 1 in my school, which is such an ego boost. it is sort of easy to be ranked one when the class averages are like 40% and 43%. i just don’t like how my teacher names me as the top scorer for every sac or assessed test we do… it is really embarrassing. like i am proud of my achievements, but a lot of this years class is the same as last years, and i was getting named top of the class every single test last year. it just makes me perceived as a nerd, which i’m not i just work hard T-T.
speaking of working hard, i’ve been working ahead in general and am a month and a half ahead of the class. myself and my friend have been working ahead together, and sort of making it a competition who can finish the course first. we also want to try doing over 80 practice exams for general math, which is the school record. it’s sort of fun to have an informal competition to work towards… it keeps me motivated and wanting to do general. i’m up to finance solver, which is so painful from last year so i hope i don’t flunk it like i did last year.
psychology and EI are the same. i have my EI sac on the last week of term, which will be interesting because i have NO idea what i am supposed to do. hopefully it gets explained next week because i am truly in the dark.
anywho, hope everyone has been taking care of themselves and SCHOOL HOLIDAYS ARE IN TWO WEEKS!!!
It's awesome to read this, so jealous you got all the classes I wanted to do for Year 12, instead I'm stuck with leftovers -v-
School has been such a sporadic mess for me, although it kind of always has been. Both me and my family don't really care if I pass VCE, but reading your journey (struggles, goals and successes) will be fun! (I'm meant to be finishing my Art Folio right now but don't tell my teacher that)
I'm a HUGE Music and Drama nerd so it's also cool to see you adore music that much! Personally I was in the top 0.0001% for Post Malone and Plain White T's last year (I need help)
I'm curious, has your school always had SACs at after-school times? Ours are normally during normal class periods so It's a bit weird seeing that you have an English SAC after-school.
For reference if we have any conversation here;
Art Marking & Exhibiting - (not by choice, 100% gonna fail 
General Math - (Got high marks last year, missed a lot of days and got really low for my first SAC, not expecting much improvement but you never know! finding a CAS calculator is going to be hard though since mine from last year got stolen...)
Food Studies - (Love it, Hate the teacher. Probably gonna get low marks though since I hate annotating)
Visual Communications - (I ABSOLUTELY adore this class and the teacher, it's such a carefree environment and we are essentially allowed to do anything as long as we get the work done in time, hands down my favorite class I have ever been in and I'm praying for high marks.)
General English (While I love writing stories and normally get high marks in free writing, I'm struggling with the Film analysis work and I'm probably gonna fail that SAC, I just don't have the attention span to watch AND analyze a movie that I find so boring. ("High Ground" if your curious)
After writing all that I realized holy crap that's a lot, hopefully it didn't completely bombard you >.>
Overall it seems like we are polar opposites for Year 12, I'm taking it easy and not really caring too much about grades and scores while your putting in the effort and striving for an incredible result.
FH
I can 100% understand that if you don't have a good biology teacher (ig that goes for all subjects) then you're going to be like a confused and lost chicken. I wish you luck for your other subjects, Year 12 seems like a pain 
I can relate to being a book reader but unable to read because of school 
Also you listen to enhypen? whats your favourite enhypen song?
monolith my admiration for music is really crazy. i listen to music almost every waking second to the point i have hearing difficulties. and for the sac’s, the school council has voted on this years ago. we even have practice exams during the winter and spring holidays, so that is something.
your subjects seem so cool - art seems like a really laid back subject but i have ZERO artistic skills so i wouldn’t really know that. so many people are doing high ground for english, i am certain it would be more interesting than our novel we did (we have always lived in the castle).
and no, you didn’t bombard me. i enjoy reading others school life, because i really have nothing to do with my life T-T. also it must have taken a while to read everything here HOW DID YOU DO IT!!?!?
Yona biology was so painful in 2023, i am so relieved to drop it. and yes, year 12 is extremely painful… i’m surprise i haven’t burned out yet (i’m really close to it though).
and yessss i LOVE enhypen - they were my 4th most listened to artist last year. my favourite song is probably that feeling when or chaconne. what is your favourite?
FH
Pretty much same for music! At any point I can I have music playing, I think last year for my spotify wrapped I had ~ 300,000 minutes listened.
It's cool to hear that your school council actually does stuff, ours kind of just lays about and organizes maybe one small event/fundraiser a year. It's mostly run by administration but their are 2 designated spots for students.
For exams/SAC's, we have always done them in class time. Normally we study the topic in class for a few weeks, spend a week on practice sacs or revision then we do the SAC's during class periods.
Art SHOULD be fun and laid back, but my Art teacher makes everything boring and tiring. They are always grumpy for no reason and are honestly just an annoyance while trying to do work. It's painful to attempt to get work done during art class because I can't have any time to myself during it. I was hoping on dropping the class but it's far too late for that.
I believe we are studying a novel after High Ground, not too sure what novel though. Not really looking forward to it either way.
I was actually procrastinating my overdue art folio work by scrolling through ATAR Notes which ended up bringing me to your thread, so now I'm here I guess.
monolith yeah it is great and all that my school council does stuff, but that means i lose a lot of personal time due to after school sacs and school holiday exams. but at least we don’t get bombarded with holiday homework. i feel like we do these kinds of things outside of class time is to have more class time to study and perfect the content, which doesn’t really show in my school since so many class averages are below 50%. looks good for my scores at least LMAO.
and i completely get the scrolling through this forum. i have two study periods monday morning and i just did my bound reference, and now i can’t be bothered!! it is either here or reddit, because my school hasn’t blocked reddit yet. hope i don’t jinx it T_T
FH
I replied but I guess it didn't go through before.
We don't really get much holiday work unless we are behind in class. I'm thankful for that ;-;
During study I normally just chill with friends in the library while watching a show or reading, very rarely if I have to get some due work done then I'll do it.
If your school ever blocks a website you like, check out getting a VPN that supports IKEV2, bypasses everything at my school.
While writing this I'm sitting in the art room trying to think of ways to authenticate my work. My art teacher gave me false info at the start of the year making me assume I can use someone else's work as a base (I'm doing photo editing). I submitted my work after an extension was given and I was praying that was all I needed to do.
I was away for the entirety of last week (In Melbourne for a concert and the day we (me & my mom) left we got a call from the teacher while we were driving, they proceeded to say that all my work can't be authenticated which I didn't find very fair (I understand now that I wasn't allowed to use someone else's work as a base, but at the time the teacher didn't tell me). Basically I had until the end of the week to submit a entirely new photo work (reminder I was in Melbourne until the end of the week) I decided f*** it, I'll submit it on Monday and they can deal with it. (Our teacher only marks work inside our folio books, so I couldn't just send him the normal work on a document) So today, Monday comes around and I get told they can't authenticate that it's my work since I didn't do it in class... HOW AM I MEANT TO PROVE IT'S MINE WHILE IM IN MELBOURNE AND NOT IN CLASS??? (they knew I was away for the week fyi).
I should mention that the backdrop original image was something I made on my computer using blender & studio.
Basically, they refused to let me show them any evidence, they refused to let me show them all the evidence I had:
- the files of the backdrop build
- Reverse image search around 10 different engines of the original base image with no results
- DMs with the person I had made it for (I made it during the timeframe of the project so it is a viable work)
- The group in which I posted the final build to, which by the way is owned by me and the group logs showcase that I uploaded and changed every single asset to do with it
- exactly 27 different copies of the build, all different variations since I MADE IT and have all the versions from beginning to end
- the PHOTOSHOP DOCUMENT that I used to make the final image
overall it's a mess and I'm probably gonna fail VCE Art and not get an ATAR because of them.
God this is a lot and I apologize for that but I just wanted to vent to literally anyone
Anyway how's your day going
monolith oh wow i wish that we had relax holiday homework like you — during the holidays for psychology we had to read around 40 pages of the textbook and answer 10 lots of questions. and that is also crazy, we have so much work to always do during our study periods because our teachers assign work having in mind we get time during the school day for study periods.
with the blocking of websites, it is sort of good stuff gets blocked because i am least distraction. and the school has blocked every vpn… like EVERY vpn. we have to sign in every morning using this internet security thing where it tracks our user and links it with our search history.
art sounds so disgusting, i am so glad i’m not talented in that department. you do five subjects, so i wouldn’t worry if you do bad in art — just let it become your 5th subject so it won’t matter that much. and don’t worry about the venting, i completely get it too.
my day has been alright; i actually did work in psychology for once because parent teacher interviews are next week and need to prove i don’t slack off. currently going over a practice test for business as i type this, but i got full marks so i am not really sweating the feedback. how has your day been besides your art teacher situation?
PS: what concert did you see last week?
FH
My day started off plain but I guess it's going well now, communicated with my year level coordinator about art so that should be fine. Just breezed through the last two periods of the day and I'm currently studying for my English SAC I have tomorrow.
I saw P!NK, I went to one of her shows when I was 6 with my family so it's quite the rush to go see it again and have the flow of old memories.
FH
good to know that you realised biology was not for you too late for me to back down but I'm in a toxic relationship with biology. Like I like it, but I dislike it at the same time, probably because its content heavy too.
BURNING OUT SUCKSS, I myself fall into that trap and it does take a while to get out of it. YOU CAN DO ITTTT I BELIEVE 
AND YES HELLO FELLOW ENGENE. CHACONNE IS ALSO MY FAV>> not much people like chaconne as their fav, so thats surprising to hear. I like fate too even though its not really a song (i wish they would make a full version already)
TFW is amazing too.