POST 11 - 06/03/24
sigh. i am TIRED. like, i-just-did-two-all-nighters-with-a-lot-of-caffeine tired. i did not do two all nighters, and i’m off caffeine (don’t ask me that tomorrow morning), but i’m just really tired from school. i got home around 5:30pm after completing my general math sac after school, which wasn’t the only after school sac this week; i had psychology on monday. before i talk about school, my personal life is more exciting so you will hear about that first.
if you remember from my very first blog post (seems like a lifetime ago), i saw conan gray back in 2022. and he is coming back to australia!! bad thing is, i have some personal stuff going on right now so i can’t exactly ask my dad if it is ok to go, but i am bringing it up tomorrow again because tickets are on sale friday morning, and i am even considering taking the first two periods off to get them. it is so hard to outline why it is important and a need that i go. it is the opening night in the world, which australia never gets, so i would be getting all the live debuts from his new album (out april 5, you will be hearing about it more then for sure). it is also during the school holidays in winter, meaning i won’t miss any school (perk) and IT’S CONAN GRAY. he literally got me from the darkest of places in 2021/22 (the internet isn’t a good place to overshare, but you get his significance to me). so please wish me luck.
anyway… school (pulls disgusted faces).
it isn’t going bad. the general sac i did today went really well - if i don’t get above a 90 i think the school oval might have some burnt grass, metaphorically of course (not really). my psych sac was also alright, just some questions really stumped me. anything to do with the nervous system i’m just like, nope, i’m out. i think i talked about the spinal reflex for the somatic nervous system, but that isn’t going to severely drag me down i guess. i feel like i just need to get on top of the stress component that occurs before the sac. before all my sacs so far, i have had really crippling stomach pains, which is not good because i had to go hospital for that the night before my unit 1 exams last year. might take up meditation, it’ll definitely help me sleep. i have my english sac after school next tuesday, so thank goodness it is 39 degrees on saturday and sunday i’m just going to study (beats getting sizzled).
EI is going alright. i’m slowly putting together my research, slightly altering my topic depending on what i’m finding. still sticking to the sport and motivators in female adolescence topic, because it is a huge gap in the literature and stuff that i can find only dates back to the 1980’s. i am also not demotivated like i was for my previous three topics… i literally completed all the weeks work in 2 days, which is amazing because i normally hand my work in 2 days late all the time. the sac for that is approaching, and i’m a little scared to be honest. i am not a good writer academically - we did this sort of practice thing last week and it took me an hour and a half to write up 700ish words, but there was a lot of contemplation and uncertainty and to be honest, i didn’t even know if it made sense. i just try sounding fancy and hope for the best, lets be honest here.
that is sort of it for now… i don’t really have much more to talk about. i’m probably 2 minutes away from crawling into bed and sleeping because i don’t even want to do homework tonight. i have three study periods tomorrow. on monday, i had five study periods, because 3 classes got cancelled due to teacher absences so i had literally one single that day. also, sort of regretting not doing ei through ches… i just feel like it is going to be really hard to perform well with vsv. watch this space i guess. hope everyone is well, and take care!! listen to rock music, be emo, live life T-T
